Josh has been off doing a show the last couple of days. It really brings back some feelings from a time in our life that wasn’t so great. Normally, when I feel this way, I shut down for an amount of time until I “feel” better and then resume the things I love (decorating, social media, friends, etc)
This time, I am pushing through the bad memories and I REFUSE to shut down. I have goals and dreams. And shutting down won’t get me to them.
There is a side of me that is even afraid to put this into words. My brain argues that people will see me as weak, or give me sympathy. And oddly, sympathy is the last thing I want. Which is why I usually hide my head in a hole until I am back to “Jen”.
Working through all of these emotions is something that I have always been afraid of. Or rather, was afraid I wasn’t strong enough to. So, my mini goals will get me there. I am even writing this because of my mini goals.
I broke down my larger goals into “mini goals.” I needed goals that were outside of whether or not a post ‘does well’ or doesn’t. I needed something tangible… So this is what we came up with…
10 Instagram Posts
(5 of those being Reels)
2 blog posts
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Getting a new plant
So… Pushing myself past myself… So that I can get a plant. Ya gotta do what ya gotta do. And I’m not even sure anyone but my dad will read this anyway, lol.
Here’s to a house full of plants 🌿🌵
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What plant did you get?
It’s a Black Knight Ficus! lol. And I have earned myself a Monstera for setting all this up! I will be busting the seems with plants…
Great read! Admire how you have chosen to press forward through feelings from the past and how you have broken down your goals something so encouraging!!
Awe, thanks Jacqui! Just trying to move forward.